Badminton Session

Just now having badminton session with Kaskade's workers.. Wow.. long time never do sport already.. It is really great with sweating.. Muahaha.. I think is time for me to get back a healthy lifestyle.. We plan to play badminton one week 2 or 3 times..

When I'm in secondary school I did represent my class to take part in badminton competition.. Haha.. I got 2nd place.. This already "n" years ago.. Well.. now I want to train myself to be better player.. so I'm already find a "si fu zai" to teach me.. Hope is not too late..

Can't wait for the next coming badmintion section.. ^^

Have a look to my aunty sporty look.. lolz

Goodbye Kampar

Today I'm really moody.. This afternoon I had pack everything from Kampar Perdana 130.. Is time for me to leave this place.. I have been staying Kampar about 2 years more.. Live in 130 this house about 1 and half years.. There's a lot of memories for me.. included 4 tastes:- sweet.. sour.. bitter.. spicy.. I will never never forget about this place..

All the time when I'm still there I always complaint about I hate Kampar.. I don't like the place.. the environment.. Today when I keep on pack my thing.. A lot of memories fresh back in my mind.. My heart just feel like having something inside so heavy.. I start to miss this place.. miss my master room.. my queen size bed.. most important thing is my friends there..

It seem like I'm leaving there.. My memories will slowly gone.. I start to worry my friends will slowly forget me.. I really miss the time when me.. yy.. ym.. 3 of us always watched movie together in my room with light off.. I miss the time I'm always disturb them.. We laugh together upset together.. make fun together fool around.. keep on take turn to suggest where to have dinner..

- My lovely bed -

Goodbye to all =(

I miss all my friends.. Whole gang always joking around in lecture class.. always "blow water" during break time.. always scare together during exam period.. gossip together.. plan for our graduated trip.. I don't know whether this plan still work or not.. I really wish that this plan will work.. This is my dream..

I want to say Thank You to all of you - my Utar friends.. Thanks for supporting me all the best.. concern and worry about me.. I'm really much appreciate all our friendship.. I will never forget about it.. I hope that you guys will never forget me this friend also - Bi Chai.. I will always support you guys no matter in where and when.. Do take care all the time.. All the best to all my beloved friends.. I will work hard with all of you but in different place..

Last Day of My Job

Today is my last day of my job.. I'm really upset with it.. I had just work for 3 weeks only.. because there's some personal problem.. I need to stop this job..

In this 3 weeks work in Kopitiam Junction.. I'm really gained a lot of experiences.. I had learn a lot of things.. In between I did think of giving up because it is really tired during weekends or holidays.. but now is time for me to stop.. I'm not really willing to..

Everyday after my work.. I'm sure got a lot of stories to tell my family and friends.. I met up a lot of different people.. There's good and bad also.. I can see a lot of different attitudes and habits of human..

There are a lot of foreign workers.. but all of them treat me so nice.. Got 2 workers I will never forget called Soo and San.. They help me a lot.. When I'm holding heavy thing they will help me to take it.. always help me do my part.. We use to joke and fool around.. Is really happy even though there are foreign worker.. and there is a supervisor called Ms. Ching.. She is really good.. She teach me a lot.. How to handle customers.. Tell me a lot of stories about the passed in Kopitiam..

I will always miss them all.. Well.. This is all about my 1st working experience..

This my payment voucher =(

My 1st Job

I'm 20 years old now.. I never been work before.. I know many people also same with me.. but I got a lot of friends had their work experiences.. I did help out my mom in her saloon.. but as boss's daughter of course easy a lot.. usually I just keep on walk here and there.. sleep in shop..

When my mom 1st told me that I should find a part-time job to fill up my leisure time.. I'm really excited.. I always think of if I can go out to work.. At 1st I had interview for PC Fair promoter work for 14 hours a day.. but I remember that my secondary friends told me work as waitress can earn much better.. and I more prefer work as a waitress..

So I went for an interview in Kopitiam Junction located in Ipoh Parade.. I was so excited and I can't wait to work already.. I told the manager the next day I can start my job.. Can you all see that how desperate I am.. Haha.. Is it sound funny?

Well.. today is my 1st day of my job.. I had work for 6 hours without sitting.. and my break time is just half an hour.. My legs are really tired but I never think of give up.. I want to earn my 1st own money.. So I will fight for it..

This is my uniform.. included with t-shirt, apron & cap..

Can you see that how old is the cap is??

End of Memory

I find out that there's nothing can keep forever.. Something that you thought you already keep it or hide it well.. you may lost it one day.. When a thing is not suppose to belong with you.. No matter how hard you want to keep it.. It will lost in some other ways.. This is the fact..

Today I had lost something that I thought I can make it as my part of memories.. I was struggling at that moment.. I keep on think of still got what way I can remain the thing that I wish to keep it well..

But something is really true.. when you want to get something.. there will be lost in something too.. I really believe in this.. Do you? Finally I choose to forget about it.. Although I'm not willing to do so.. I know I have to..

Well.. As many people use to say.. Time can cure many thing.. So I hope time is my best medicine also..

Stupid Day

You know what.. I think myself really stupid.. Hmm.. All because of I'm running away from my problem.. I really don't know how should I face it.. Hmm.. Yesterday seem like end of world.. My mind totally blank out.. I know myself is trying to escape from my problem.. I keep spending all my time to write blog and I had did something silly again..

I choose to drunk so that I no need to think so much.. I ask 2 of my friends to accompany me.. I just simply because of want to drunk and they have to accompany also.. I know every time if I drink so much of alcohol surely I will vomit.. But I just don't care.. Vomit is really suffer.. Why should I still want to do so.. Is it because of I'm so crazy? I cried out something in my heart.. At that moment.. I just feel like dying but no others..

I keep on cried out what is in my mind.. Something I can't even remember what did I cried out yesterday.. This morning after I wake up I just feel like shame on myself.. What I did is totally non-sense.. What for?? Just like a stupid..

But here I want to thank my friends.. They are really supportive.. and a person that I don't know who is he/she.. This person had leave a comment to my previous post.. Really supportive and full of encouragement.. I hope I can learn from his/her advices.. Especially YY and YM.. I know they try hard to make me feel better.. So I'm glad to meet them.. Thank you my friends..

Good-for-nothing

You know what.. Actually everyone of us should be so understand your own right? Last time I use to be clear of myself.. I know my own characteristics.. I know what I want.. I know what should I do even I do not follow.. I still will be clear about my mind..

Recently only I realize actually I do not understand myself.. Sometimes I really got the feeling of hate to myself.. I don't know why.. Last time when I was in my primary or secondary school.. My teachers, my friends, my relatives or my family told me that I'm a smart girl.. but I just so playful.. do not take thing serious.. In my studies.. for those mid-term exam I surely just get the passing result.. But once for those important exam like UPSR, PMR or even SPM.. I can get better result at least few As..

Do you believe that a person will slowly become stupid once he or she grows up? I really find out that I'm a stupid fellow.. I really don't understand how can I survive for my previous studies.. I always ask myself do not take thing easy.. Since a lot of incident happened to me from the passed until now.. I had missed up a lot to chances in many thing.. I always told myself I have to.. I must appreciate every chance that I have no matter in what.. But I never appreciate at all.. Never and never..

Always make thing worse until that's the end.. Only I think how to run away from it.. I like to escape from problems.. I always ask myself what is the way to escape.. I think many of you will think that I'm a brave girl right? I'm not! I scare to face problems.. I always just run away from that.. People don't mention.. I just act nothing..

Las time I use to think I like to solve problems.. I do not like to escape from problems.. I use to scold people about that.. Now I find that last time I'm not solving problem.. Actually I thought I want to solve the problems.. is just make thing even worse.. I had made a lot of silly decisions before.. I had hurt a lot of people.. even myself.. I thought myself already grown up from it.. But not at all..

This few years I really don't know what did I do before.. Seem like pass my days without my soul.. What I have did is meaningful.. I can't even find one.. What I have did is really make people happy.. Noone.. In materially I got a lot that other people don't have.. But all are useless.. Now in this moment I really realize I'm good-for-nothing..