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Friday, May 13, 2011

揭下面具做回自己吧


有听过人生如戏吗?人生就像演一场戏。有时候当我们看戏时,很自然会说:“太戏剧化了吧!”可是人生就是这样啊!每个人都在扮演着一个角色。你说他坏的同时也有人会说他好。每个人的定义都不一样。有时候人总是身不由己,明知道那角色是奸的,形势所逼,他们也得扮演下去。无论心里有多少个不愿意。

我们就像戴上了一个面具扮演自己。有谁真的可以完全掌握自己的所有?谁能预测明天?有些人总是开开心心的,优游自在,看起来就像没有烦恼一样。故意让所有人知道自己有多开心,但其实他们内心的问题和烦恼又有谁能看见?有谁真的可以知道别人心里所想的?!

有很多人总会戴着面具,总是不愿意表露真真的自己,尤其是自己寂寞的时候。有很多时候不是他们不要表露,是没办法。不是所有事情都可以如自己所想的那么简单就可以解决。他们惟有伪装着,总是要让别人知道自己有多坚强。从来不会让别人看到自己难过的一面。其实有谁可以一个人独自面对所有的问题?!

尤其是在感情世界里,有很多人都会变得脆弱。夜深人静的时候,他们不知道一个人会发生什么事,坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴,也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间。可是爱面子的人通常都会表现酷酷与事隔离的样子,就是不希望让别人看到自己脆弱的一面。看着脸带快乐的他们,背后却流下一脸的悲伤。逞强的人总是长期的伪装着,让别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。他们可以无时无刻的跟一群人谈天说地,其实他们只不过不能承受一个人时的寂寞。

其实是自己单纯,还是不喜欢接受现实?很多人总觉得自己想要的就会如自己所愿的得到。他们想的世界观很简单,所以当问题来了,他们就会选择逃避,然后对自己说没关系的,相信命运吧!所以就要自己装得若无其事的来面对。 很多人只想过着简简单单快乐的生活,有个了解自己的伴侣,可以给自己微笑,都很足够了。但是他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想,因为他们觉得就算表达出来了也未必得到他人的认同。

别人总是说就算不能够和自己爱的人在一起,只要对方快乐,都觉得满足。是真的吗?有谁真的可以做到这一点?这世上是没有免费的午餐,当你想要得到某一样东西,你就要牺牲自己的一样东西。你要他快乐了吗?你就得牺牲某些东西。

其实生活在伪装里是很辛苦的。有时候累了,真的希望可以停下来。可是当你无从选择,你只可以硬着头皮撑下去。可是自己发觉梦境离自己越来越来远了,不得不去面对现实时,那些所谓的笑容,开心,期待都要停止了。惟有去找一个自己最信赖的人,拆下面具,委屈的掉下眼泪。因为在他们心里,笑就是开心,哭就是难过。为了不要让别人知道自己的脆弱,戴上微笑的面具,但其实心受伤时,眼泪就无法忍住了。可是他们总会在哭过之后,笑笑的擦干眼泪,告诉别人:“没关系,我还可以。”

当自己努力的去让自己的梦想实现时,却总是不能够达成,而到最后自己也不明白问题出在哪里。只会怪自己扮演得不够好。到底要扮到什么时候?想想是不是该停下了吧?与其那样辛苦,还不如揭下面具做回自己,回到现实世界吧。。

Friday, February 11, 2011

大年初八

历初八晚上很多人都回盛重准备拜天公,我外公家每一年都有拜,场面很热闹,所有亲戚朋友都会到齐,外公会请人来准备自由餐,除此以外来有很多拜祭的食物,到了十二点,就会放鞭炮和放烟花。。可是我已经两三年没去了,因为都是大学开了课,我得回去上课,今年也一样。。

今年是我第一次在KL体验这里的人庆祝年初八的气氛,长到那么大,第一次看烟花看不停,从8点多开始直到凌晨2点多,炮竹的响亮声一直未停过,陆陆续续一直有人在放烟花。本来我真的感觉有点寂寞,可是站高处的天台看着整片天空都闪闪亮亮的,很多孔明灯飘在空中,真的很美。。我突然觉的有点兴奋,开始觉得热闹起来。。

烟花还是不停不停的展放在天空,我也忍不住拿起相机把那么美的一刻拍下来。


在此我愿大家平安安康,笑容都像烟花那样灿烂。。


Very Nice right??

Monday, February 7, 2011

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

Is time to say Happy Chinese New Year to all of you again.. Everyone is happy with it because of the holidays.. I feel that this year Chinese New Year passed a little bit fast than before.. I have listened many feedback from others.. They commented the same.. which is not enough time for them to enjoy with it..

For me.. every chinese new year is the same.. before Cor 1 those few days of course have to help up in my mom's shop.. During lunar eve.. that night all the relatives will be gather in grandpa's house and wait for getting angpao.. Well.. This year has a little bit boring.. seem so less relatives come back my grandpa's place.. Last time at 12a.m. sharp my grandpa house will full of people and feel so crowded.. This year kinda quiet..

This year a little too rush.. So I have no time to meet up with my old friends.. What a waste.. Luckily I still able to watch 2 CNY movies.. Which are All's Well Ends Well 2011 and Mr. And Mrs. Incredible.. Cor 4 I already back to KL because the next day have class to go.. This is how I pass my CNY this year..


- During Lunar eve -


Finished dress up myself..


Before going to Grandpa's house..


Everyone is busy giving angpao or getting angpao..


My lovely sisters..


All my pretty cousins..

- Cor 1 -
Go for movie..


Mr. And Mrs. Incredible

- Cor 2 -
Morning go for movie after that go back to father hometown..


All's Well Ends Well 2011


Every year back to father hometown the most enjoyable thing is can eat this as we call "xiu mai"..


This is hand make "xiu mai" by my uncle.. which is father's 2nd elder brother.. This restaurant is last time operated by my "Yeye" (Grandpa) until today continue by my uncle.. This place is full of memories for my uncles and aunties..


It is very lucky that I meet up YY there..
Her relative also same hometown..
She is visiting her relative on the same day..

- Cor 3 -
Today is nothing to do..
We just hangging at Jusco and Ipoh Parade..


Before going out..


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2011 TO YOU PEOPLE ^^

Sunday, January 16, 2011

My Blessed 21st Birthday

I had celebrated my 21st birthday yesterday.. Here I would like to say thank you to all of you for my birthday wishes.. I really much appreciate.. With this birthday.. I had went through some different feeling.. Included happy, upset, excited and disappointed.. Actually I have plan for myself how am I going to pass my 21st birthday.. Early year ago.. I've been thinking about this.. I hope that it will be a very memorable and unforgetable birthday I ever have..

Time passed day by day.. It is getting nearer and nearer to my big day.. I start to plan how am I going to celebrate my big day and who I need to invite .. My relatives and all my friends.. Old friends and current friends.. I did expect all of them will attend.. I wish to get all their blessing wishes.. But sometime thing will not go with what you expect.. Some people really have their own unconvenient reason so that can't make it.. I'm kinda dissappointed but I still can accept for it.. Upset is for those some of my caring friends.. I know that they are able to make it but is just maybe I'm no longer important for them so that they just simply give some excuses to reject.. This really show me clearly that there are no what people said forever friend or keep in touch.. Although the celebration is not what I expect before.. I'm still happy with it.. and it also brings me some precious memory..

Besides.. I will not forget to thanks all the guests who attended my birthday bash with those precious birthday presents.. You guys brought me a lot of joys on this day..



Here the foods prepare by my mom..


My 21st Birthday Cake look nice right..
My favorite green colour - Pandan Cake


+ Make A Wish +


- My Family -


My Ex Uni Friends - Ooi, Jai Ding, Yann Fei & Catherine


My Old Schoolmates -
Jiar Man, Wai Huan, Syee Wei, Yoke Ying &
One of my ex uni friend - Yen Mey


- My Girls -


- My Ex Uni Gang -


Birthday Girl ^^


Faye, Mey, Me, Yy & Cat


Special Thanks to them my BBF - Yen Mey & Yoke Ying
Thanks for all the time by my side.. and I'm happy with the dress up of you both..
Muahaha ^^


See 3 gorgeous girls here..
Me and My lovely sisters - Sinn Chai & Yann Chai
I love you 2 so much..


My mature look..


My birthday presents..


My actual Birthday is today
16 - 01 - 2011

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY
to me

+ May my dream come true +

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year 2011

I would like to Greet all you :-


HAPPY NEW YEAR
2011


Wish you guys all the best..
Happy always.. Stay Cool..
+ May God Bless Us +



May Everyday is Good Day for me ^^

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas

This is the second times I post Merry Christmas in my blog.. Which means already another end of year.. I think a lot of people like Christmas because everyone can has so much joys in this day.. During Christmas eve.. everyone is busy with dressing up nicely date with friends.. go for count down.. exchange gift.. having big turkey meal with family.. friends or love one.. Everywhere is full of Christmas atmosphere..

But I guess there are somebody will still same as me just past it as usual day.. It doesn't mean I don't like Christmas.. I like to have a jolly time during every festival.. I got a lot of friends did date me out for Christmas count down.. but I have rejected all.. Actually I got my own dream of celebration of Christmas.. It still not yet come true.. So I'm waiting for it.. Hope that it may come true one day..

So time year I'm still as usual past a lonely Christmas.. and I feel that this my lovely Bosco's song match my feeling in this moment..


重唱过气圣诗 走过人潮仍旧愉快
全世界大合唱 只得我听见了天籁
而我最怕逛街 被浮夸灯饰出卖
大众惊我孤单不快 路过商店继续放大
节日姿态

期望世界并没圣诞
谁亦叫我妒忌的一晚
出席联欢晚会 将礼物再拣
并无对象可给我挂单
难道这晚特别怕冷
人墙内擦过 寂寞应该惯
这座城围着倒数快乐时间
谁又发觉 在我天台我独个面对夜阑
给我自己礼物都不算最惨 过热闹圣诞

朋友约我晚餐 恐怕人前胡乱大醉
人造繁盛状态 只不过替爱侣点缀
来派对去庆祝 若然不小心淌泪
令到亲友挥之不去 被我一个破坏节日
我亦不对

期望世界并没圣诞
谁亦叫我妒忌的一晚
出席联欢晚会 将礼物再拣
并无对象可给我挂单
难道这晚特别怕冷
人墙内擦过 寂寞应该惯
这座城围着倒数快乐时间
谁又发觉 在我天台我独个面对夜阑
给我自己礼物都不算最惨 过热闹圣诞

凡人互相安慰 而我一位对着电脑
想像每个教堂 别人为伴侣祷告
我却听不到

明日世界并没圣诞
谁亦叫我妒忌的一晚
火树银花也许 给我望过一眼
而明亮风景太灿烂
难道这晚特别怕冷
能随便买醉 便活多一晚
这乐园唯独我一个是逃犯
只好细看 万个灯胆照下去 夜也是蓝
不快乐不快乐数多次也许 已踏入圣诞

比较露宿一个老者 我亦未算冷


P/S :
By the way.. I would like to wish everyone here having a joyful Christmas 2010..

+ MERRY CHRISTMAS +

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Life with no regrets



Is coming to end of year.. All the time I use to think time pass so slow.. I always ask people around me.. How come the time pass so slow.. but what to say.. now already december.. Usually when the year is come until the end.. what will you think.. I will look back over a year what I have done.. So I can know whether I past my time preciously or not.. Well.. I find out myself not really appreciate my time.. Over a year.. I just seem like did nothing..

Why do we live for.. Actually we are doing a recyle of life.. all of us are doing the same thing.. is depend on whether do we make good use of it.. Now matter what have happen.. life still go on.. Time will not wait for us.. I use to look back and I like to blame.. For something bad happened to me.. I will blame everything.. I will blame myself.. blame people around.. Last time I use to blame God too.. and mostly my questions sure start with WHY.. "Why I don't.." "Why is me.." "Why I can't.." "Why do I.." and then I will try to escape from it.. Is not to think how to solve it..

When the problem already occur.. you do not solve it.. The problem will forever there.. Even though you can escape from it now.. you can avoid it few times but one day it may come back to you again.. This is for what I had realize.. All the time just keep on blaming this and that.. time past day by day.. and at the end did nothing.. Isn't it a waste..

This is a very worse attitude that I have.. I rather wasting all my time of blaming yet not to make full use on it.. After some incident happened to me I learn to know that fact we can't change but we can make future.. I always tell myself make my dream come true and want a bright future.. Always is just those same words "I think" "I want" "I wish".. but never work for it..

I have to admit actually I'm not really a faithful person to God.. But I always believe that God will make a way for us.. God will give us chances.. We will not know God will plan what way for us.. when our chances will come.. For some who do not believe in God.. They will think human make right.. Is it true? I want to ask sometimes when you want to get something.. No matter how hard you try to make it but is still can't come true.. Why is that so? Maybe you still can say not work hard enough.. So when you think you already make your life perfect but the next day you suddenly pass away.. Why is that so? We have to accept that something is not we - human can make it..

For what we can do is make good use in every single minute that we have.. Try our very best to make our dream come true.. to achieve what we expect our life is.. Do not blindly go through your life.. When you recall the past only find out you did nothing.. Make your life with no regrets.. This is what we call cherish life..