My new friends

Here we are, my new friends in KBU. Finally is end of my 3rd Year 1st semester. When I first enter KBU, is really feel so strange. Even during my whole Year 2, I wasn't close with my classmates.. But slowly we become friend and get closer and closer. Some is same batch with me and some is my seniors. They are going to graduate after this semester. Today is our last class for this semester. After that we have to fight for our final examination already.. Let's relax for a day..

She is Yih Tyng.. 

We use to discuss about exam through Whatsapp.. 

 

In the middle is Siew Yuen..

I use to ask her questions whenever I don't understand in study.

She is Pui Yee..

Come together from Utar.. Like to gossiping sometimes..

Elaine and Adeline who are come from Sibu..

Listened that Sibu has many rich people.. What you think? haha

They are the most quiet students in class that lecturer use to say..

The one behind me is Qiao Li the only couple in class..

The other two behind Pui Yee is Angeline and Siao Fong..

They are my seniors and the smart one in class..  

Having lunch..

She is Christine.. My senior as well..

She a good student that lecturer did mentioned..

 He is Kim Thai.. Senior as well..

My lecturer use to call him little boy..

Well, can see from his face too.. Haha

Happy Birthday to Yen Mey

Happy Birthday to birthday girl - Yen Mey

Wish you all the best

May your dream come true 

My dear - Yen Mey

My sweetie - Yoke Ying

Us =)

Before

After

Today is not the actual day for Yen Mey's birthday. Although it is not a what special celebration. But it means a lot to me. Previously there was some stupid thing happened because of my immature. Well, I have learn from it and I would to thank you my dear friends - Yoke Ying and Yen Mey. Thanks for their forgiveness all the time. I hope that our friendship can maintain forever. Seriously, I miss those time when we stay together. It is really brought a lot of good memories for me and I will never forget =)

Skytrek

It has been long time that me and my friend plan to go for Skystrek. But always don't have the right time and can't date enough people. Finally our seniors ask us whether want to join them go for Skystrek or not.. It is really great for us. Through this little adventure I can gain a good relationship with my seniors. Well, they are cool. It is really a good experience for me. We play the extreme one.. although is quite tired but I still feel Skytrek is really awesome. 

 - Selamat Datang -

See how excited we are before we start our adventure..

I feel that myself back to secondary school time.. haha..

Have to listen the briefing of the rules..

I'm dreaming I guess..

This is the one I found quite hard for me..

Come to the last station..

We have done!!

What a great day =)

Invisible

I take these pills to make me thin

I dye my hair and cut my skin

I try everything to make them see me

But all they see is someone that’s not me

Even when Im walking on a wire

Even when I set myself on fire

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Everyday I try to look my best

Even though inside Im such a mess

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Here inside, my quiet hell

You cannot hear my cries for help

I try everything to make them see me

But everyone sees what I can’t be

Even when Im walking on a wire

Even when I set myself on fire

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Everyday I try to look my best

Even though inside Im such a mess

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Sometimes when Im alone

I pretend that Im a queen (a queen)

It’s almost believable

Even when Im walking on a wire

Even when I set myself on fire

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Everyday I try to look my best

Even though inside Im such a mess

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

P/S : I'm invisible..

Last day for my internship

A short period of 3 months and 15 days.. Came to the last day and finally end of my internship career.. Although is not that good as what I imagined.. it is still stand benefit for me.. At least I had learn and gained the experiences so that I know how to survive in this community later after I have graduate..

Suppose end of August will be my last day.. but I requested to extend more 15 days because my class reopen is on 19th of September.. Actually I'm not really hope to extend.. I got nothing to do that's why force myself to extend..

It is not because I'm lazy to work or what.. The reason is I'm not really like my working place.. The 1st month I'm really happy with it.. As I mentioned earlier I got good and friendly colleagues.. After they leaves I'm just like sometime as what other people said.. Going to work seem like going to hell..

I think some of you may ask why is it so.. Hmm.. hard to explain here.. but I just can briefly say that because I got a "good" supervisor and some "kind" colleagues.. Well.. maybe is good for me also because they let me learn about how should I protect myself and be aware to those "kind" people when I'm in my working career next day..

Anyway I'm gonna be prepare and fighting in my last year of my degree.. So just forget about that.. I have to - Fighting Fighting Fighting.. Wish me luck ya ^^

Cousin Brother's Wedding Dinner

Since I come to kl for my study.. I have less contact with my relatives or my hometown friends.. Because I just go back my hometown once a month.. sometime is just for 1 or 2 days.. I have no time to meet up with them..

Sometime I might feel that myself already become a outsider.. Luckily today got the chance for me meet up with my lovely cousins.. Still feel warm with them.. Today is my cousin brother's wedding dinner.. I am also long time never been to wedding dinner.. I miss those foods.. Haha.. Feel happy that I can eat so much..

Before heading to the restaurant..

- My 2 lovely sisters -

- With my lovely cousins -

We all look gorgeous isn't it? Lolz..

After a month of internship

I'm not really use to it when my department become so quiet already.. Because of 3 of my colleagues have resigned.. After a month working with them really learn a lot of thing.. They are my senior and also the old stuff of the company.. With them the office is full of joys.. They taught me a lot of things not just only for working..

We did went out for sing k session and "yum cha".. Really got the feel of not willing to see them leaving.. Here I would like to wish them have a good future in their new company.. Well today I was like back to the 1st day being here doing my work quietly.. What a boring day..

走出自己的路

什么是生活？！每个人活在这个世界上都是为了生活。在我们的生命中一定会经历到喜怒哀乐。每当一个生命来到这世界，就要开始打算接下来要怎样去生活。当然，我们一出世还没有思想，就由我们的父母为我们打算先，当我们都长大了，理所当然到我们自己打算了。可是当孩子长大了，很多父母还是喜欢为孩子打算将来。我们常听到的 “养儿一百岁，长忧九十九”。。这是传统的思想。

每个人的出生都不由自己选择。有的一出生就含着金钥匙，大家就会说那个人接下来的生活肯定无忧无虑了。不是说生活在有钱家庭就会活得开心，但是起码他们少了一份担忧。有的出生在比较贫穷的家庭，并不代表他们会不开心，可是生活可能就要艰辛一点。有时候，有钱的人会说羡慕平淡家庭的生活，同样的平淡的人会希望自己变得有钱。人总不会知足。

有人说上天是公平的，同时都会有人说不公平；其实是在乎于你自己怎么去看。有的人活得一生坎坷，有的人总是一生顺利，那我们要怎么去解释？有宗教信仰的人，就像佛教所说的前世吗？还是基督教所说的因为那个人没有信念？对于那些没有宗教信仰的人就肯定会说上天不公平了。那又能怎样？能改变吗？

在生活当中总会有对与错，没有可能全世界的人都会有一样的想法。有时候你做的事，不可能会得到所有人的认同，那你就要放弃吗？何不再去尝试呢？当你要做某些事之前，先要对得起自己良心，如果不是伤天害理的，为什么不去坚持？有很多时候机会明明掌握在手中，因为遇到挫折就坚持不下去，然后就放弃了；不断给自己借口不去面对，真的有必要那样做吗？

我们改变不了自己的出生，为什么不去改变自己的未来。有的人可能从来没有机会自己选择，那只好怨命运吧！有的就是因为自己太执着，总是不肯放下心中的怨恨，令到身边的人都觉得辛苦，到头来自己更加辛苦。时间不会让人忘记过去，但是会淡化一切，岁月的改变不会令人变得成熟，惟有在自己经历过的风浪的过程中学习，慢慢让自己变得成熟。

在我们的生活过程当中，总会错失过机会。曾经有人说过，上天只会给世人三次机会，当第三次的机会你也错失了，那就不再有机会了。当你被迫放弃然后失去了某些东西，就觉得很痛苦，很难受。其实人生最苦的并不是失去某些你认为很重要的东西，而是你从来不懂得珍惜。

失败是人生必经的过程。当然没有人希望自己在做任何事情时会失败，但是当你失败了，你还会懂得振作站起来。每当人面对失败时，都希望会有机会从新再来；会真正懂得珍惜机会的人就是成功的人。就算到头来你做的事并不是你想象中的好，但是你曾经积极努力过，会觉得可惜都不会觉得后悔。最可怜的是那些不断让自己的机会流失，然后只会说后悔，但是从来并没有去珍惜过的人。到头来自己还是一无是处，令人可笑。。

我们最大的敌人其实不是别人，而是自己。为什么总是要和别人比？有的人说，拿别人来比，自己才会进步，其实真的是那样的吗？一直拿别人和自己比，不会觉得辛苦吗？当你赢了别人，那一刻，可能你会很开心，但是要记得 “人无千日好，花无百日红” ，人总会有输的时候，那你要怎么办？就是因为我们自己根本不相信自己，所以才要和别人作比较。其实做任何事情，只要达到自己的目标不就已经很好了吗？如果你要进步的话，把现有的目标达成，再把下一个目标设高一点啊！最重要的是相信自己。

无论前面的路有多灰，我们还是要走下去。我们只有两个选择，一就是离开这世界，但是要记得问自己，值得吗？不然我们就要继续闯下去了，既然都选择走下去，不如给自己的人生添点色彩，给自己的路带来阳光，不要总是自艾自怨；多难走的路，都不要忘记带着笑容去走，那么你会发现前面的路容易走多了。要是你看到面前的阴影，別害怕，因为你的背后有阳光。。

1st day of my internship

Today is the 1st day I go for my internship.. I'm working at the accounting department of a slimming beauty company.. I think some of you may ask me why I didn't choose those accounting firm or audit firm since I'm doing accounting and finance course.. Actually choosing where also the same which is doing account.. Hmm.. Maybe is because of the salary and the office is nearby my place..

I'm kinda nervous because I don't have any experience and I'm a stranger there.. Luckily the HR manager is quite friendly and arrange some work for me to do.. The whole day I was like something went wrong keep on maintain my smiling face.. because I need to give my colleagues a good impression..

The worse thing is as usual I'm so sleepy yet I gonna looking at the monitor for 7 hours and keep on key data non stop.. My eyes and hands is freaking tired.. Now only I know working ain't that easy as what I think..

New Hair Style

Finally I try a new hair style.. I permed my hair.. All the time you will just see my hair with short or long and it is confirm with straight.. I feel that curly hair will make a person become mature.. I'm not really like it.. because I don't think I'm suitable for it..

Honestly I'm kinda bored with my hair in the same style all the time.. I did think of cut it short but since I have keep it until this length which I never try before.. So I just wish to make some change with it only..

My mom give me a suggestion which is perm my hair into curl.. and she said I'm going to do my intership soon.. Is okay to be mature if I'm really feel that.. Since I have no idea with it.. So I just let my mom design for me..

Well.. I'm quite satisfy with it.. So what do you think?

While waiting for the result..

Come out with this result ^^

N8

1 and a half year I have changed my phone again.. Is time to follow the trend.. Before I change this phone.. I always tell my friends.. I just don't know why nowadays no matter where you are.. you will just see mostly everyone is holding a smartphone.. iPhone, HTC, Nokia or Samsung.. Everyone is keep on playing with their phone..

What is the point? The main thing I find out is they want to update their latest thing to facebook on time.. Do you realise that photos with mobile uploaded and check in are the activities we always can see in facebook.

For what I can say is this is a trend now.. Well, I can't comment so much about this.. Because I have holding one now.. but I'm still not that updated because I more prefer play games only..

My New Toy

揭下面具做回自己吧

有听过人生如戏吗？人生就像演一场戏。有时候当我们看戏时，很自然会说：“太戏剧化了吧！”可是人生就是这样啊！每个人都在扮演着一个角色。你说他坏的同时也有人会说他好。每个人的定义都不一样。有时候人总是身不由己，明知道那角色是奸的，形势所逼，他们也得扮演下去。无论心里有多少个不愿意。

我们就像戴上了一个面具扮演自己。有谁真的可以完全掌握自己的所有？谁能预测明天？有些人总是开开心心的，优游自在，看起来就像没有烦恼一样。故意让所有人知道自己有多开心，但其实他们内心的问题和烦恼又有谁能看见？有谁真的可以知道别人心里所想的？！

有很多人总会戴着面具，总是不愿意表露真真的自己，尤其是自己寂寞的时候。有很多时候不是他们不要表露，是没办法。不是所有事情都可以如自己所想的那么简单就可以解决。他们惟有伪装着，总是要让别人知道自己有多坚强。从来不会让别人看到自己难过的一面。其实有谁可以一个人独自面对所有的问题？！

尤其是在感情世界里，有很多人都会变得脆弱。夜深人静的时候，他们不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间。可是爱面子的人通常都会表现酷酷与事隔离的样子，就是不希望让别人看到自己脆弱的一面。看着脸带快乐的他们，背后却流下一脸的悲伤。逞强的人总是长期的伪装着，让别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。他们可以无时无刻的跟一群人谈天说地，其实他们只不过不能承受一个人时的寂寞。

其实是自己单纯，还是不喜欢接受现实？很多人总觉得自己想要的就会如自己所愿的得到。他们想的世界观很简单，所以当问题来了，他们就会选择逃避，然后对自己说没关系的，相信命运吧！所以就要自己装得若无其事的来面对。 很多人只想过着简简单单快乐的生活，有个了解自己的伴侣，可以给自己微笑，都很足够了。但是他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，因为他们觉得就算表达出来了也未必得到他人的认同。

别人总是说就算不能够和自己爱的人在一起，只要对方快乐，都觉得满足。是真的吗？有谁真的可以做到这一点？这世上是没有免费的午餐，当你想要得到某一样东西，你就要牺牲自己的一样东西。你要他快乐了吗？你就得牺牲某些东西。

其实生活在伪装里是很辛苦的。有时候累了，真的希望可以停下来。可是当你无从选择，你只可以硬着头皮撑下去。可是自己发觉梦境离自己越来越来远了，不得不去面对现实时，那些所谓的笑容，开心，期待都要停止了。惟有去找一个自己最信赖的人，拆下面具，委屈的掉下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过。为了不要让别人知道自己的脆弱，戴上微笑的面具，但其实心受伤时，眼泪就无法忍住了。可是他们总会在哭过之后，笑笑的擦干眼泪，告诉别人：“没关系，我还可以。”

当自己努力的去让自己的梦想实现时，却总是不能够达成，而到最后自己也不明白问题出在哪里。只会怪自己扮演得不够好。到底要扮到什么时候？想想是不是该停下了吧？与其那样辛苦，还不如揭下面具做回自己，回到现实世界吧。。

大年初八

农

历初八晚上很多人都回盛重准备拜天公，我外公家每一年都有拜，场面很热闹，所有亲戚朋友都会到齐，外公会请人来准备自由餐，除此以外来有很多拜祭的食物，到了十二点，就会放鞭炮和放烟花。。可是我已经两三年没去了，因为都是大学开了课，我得回去上课，今年也一样。。

今年是我第一次在KL体验这里的人庆祝年初八的气氛，长到那么大，第一次看烟花看不停，从8点多开始直到凌晨2点多，炮竹的响亮声一直未停过，陆陆续续一直有人在放烟花。本来我真的感觉有点寂寞，可是站高处的天台看着整片天空都闪闪亮亮的，很多孔明灯飘在空中，真的很美。。我突然觉的有点兴奋，开始觉得热闹起来。。

烟花还是不停不停的展放在天空，我也忍不住拿起相机把那么美的一刻拍下来。

在此我愿大家平安安康，笑容都像烟花那样灿烂。。

Very Nice right??

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

Is time to say Happy Chinese New Year to all of you again.. Everyone is happy with it because of the holidays.. I feel that this year Chinese New Year passed a little bit fast than before.. I have listened many feedback from others.. They commented the same.. which is not enough time for them to enjoy with it..

For me.. every chinese new year is the same.. before Cor 1 those few days of course have to help up in my mom's shop.. During lunar eve.. that night all the relatives will be gather in grandpa's house and wait for getting angpao.. Well.. This year has a little bit boring.. seem so less relatives come back my grandpa's place.. Last time at 12a.m. sharp my grandpa house will full of people and feel so crowded.. This year kinda quiet..

This year a little too rush.. So I have no time to meet up with my old friends.. What a waste.. Luckily I still able to watch 2 CNY movies.. Which are All's Well Ends Well 2011 and Mr. And Mrs. Incredible.. Cor 4 I already back to KL because the next day have class to go.. This is how I pass my CNY this year..

- During Lunar eve -

Finished dress up myself..

Before going to Grandpa's house..

Everyone is busy giving angpao or getting angpao..

My lovely sisters..

All my pretty cousins..

- Cor 1 -

Go for movie..

Mr. And Mrs. Incredible

- Cor 2 -

Morning go for movie after that go back to father hometown..

All's Well Ends Well 2011

Every year back to father hometown the most enjoyable thing is can eat this as we call "xiu mai"..

This is hand make "xiu mai" by my uncle.. which is father's 2nd elder brother.. This restaurant is last time operated by my "Yeye" (Grandpa) until today continue by my uncle.. This place is full of memories for my uncles and aunties..

It is very lucky that I meet up YY there..

Her relative also same hometown..

She is visiting her relative on the same day..

- Cor 3 -

Today is nothing to do..

We just hangging at Jusco and Ipoh Parade..

Before going out..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2011 TO YOU PEOPLE ^^