可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，

有人说爱情就像在捡石头，总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
她适合你，那你又适合她吗?

其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，或许刚捡到的时候，
你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！其实是人先被惰性征服，所以感情才会变淡的。

在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，
这时候有个中年男人忽然说
[十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，
她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！
现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！
我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！]
听到了吗？明白了吗？

难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
如果每个人都懒得讲话、懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
所以请记住：有活力的爱情，是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，
可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，
当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，
他的男朋友很不高兴的说：
你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，
我以後再也不会等你了！
刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，
她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了同样的在同一个地点，

另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；
女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！
接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，
此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。

你体会到了吗？其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！
爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，
很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！懂了吗？
当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。那并不代表你会选择他。
我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来， 当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。

或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，
只是你没发 觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！他或许已经等你很久喽！
当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。

如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，
让彼此喘不过气来， 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分。

那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？
我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，
但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！

如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，
要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

It is Gone

It is gone..

I realize..

How much it meant to me..

My loss is wide as a starless night sky..

And deep as a stormy sea..

I miss the comfort of sweet love..

Absolute devotion..

Now I'm a fountain of endless tears..

A pool of sad emotion..

I should move on with life..

That time will heal my pain..

I smile with hide of sadness..

Sweet happiness is what I wish for..

17 Again

Before i watch this movie.. My 2nd sister already introduce to me.. But actually i'm not really interesting about it.. So i never think want to watch this movie..

Mr. Jr invite me to watch with him.. But i didn't because of some argument with him.. After few hours.. I had received a message that make me really felt happy.. surprise.. comfort and really support..

Why i would received this supporting message from Mr. Jr.. Hmm.. I really have to thank this movie.. Lol.. He told me that he watch through something in this movie..

Finally i have watch it.. This movie not only because of Zac Efron is handsome.. haha.. It is really meaningful.. I like this story very much.. I know it won't be happened in real life.. But at least the story teaches us have to appreciate everything u have now.. Future thing who knows.. Once u already make the decision.. U have to try ur best to achieve it..

When u having problem.. Don't choose to escape from it.. U have to face it bravely and think how to solve it.. Don't blame other.. What u wish to do and it is not harmful.. Just do it.. Don't wait.. Don't be afraid.. Because when the chance pass already.. It will never turn back again..

Sometimes u feel that u made a wrong decision when problems occur.. But why don't u treat those problems as a part of learning in ur life.. Maybe the "wrong" decision that u made is a brand new life to start.. Never think about regret..

Who ever can have the chance in 2 times age 17?

Thinking of change his passed..

Finally he choose back what he really want..

Get Mad

What the......

Really get mad in this moment..

A loud voice talking through the phone..

Angry until don't know how to describe..

Throw the phone on table..

Wish to scream it out loudly..

Turn on the music loudly..

Relax myself..

Fed Up

Sometimes i'm really fed up with everything..

Wish to give up everything..

Don't know hardworking for what..

Unwilling to put up with something any longer..

No matter how i explain how i express my feeling..

Nobody will really understand..

Because they are not me..

Other people won't know my real feeling even though i try very hard to express it out..

No matter how i tell other people how pity i am..

How am i suffering for..

Maybe when i'm feeling upset or tears dropping..

People will sympathy me..

They will feel how pity i am..

But is just that moment..

Afterthat?

Still remain the same..

My life is just can go through with a "square" road..

With 4 corners..

No matter how i try my best to walk out..

Is still the same..

Why..

Life is so cruel..

You treat a person so nice..

But the person not for sure will feel thank you..
Maybe this person will just feel annoying for ur busybody..

Sometimes u wish the person to care u more..

But the person does not..

In our life..

Not really we pay out how much..

And u will get back how much..

Something that u already pay it out..

And u never get it back..

Time and Feeling..

Should be like this?

I don't know..

I wish the time can stop at my childhood..

Child won't care what is love..

Child won't care how the life go on..

They just will care eat.. sleep.. and play..

They just have cry and laugh for their life..
They don't know how is suffering for life..

They won't fed up for everything..

But time will never stop..

Boring Day

What a boring day to me..
Today i'm totally feel so like absence of meaningful occupation..
Emptiness of mind..
Seem like nobody online..
No respon on my msn and skype..
No game playing..
No drama wacthing..
Even don't feel like blogging..
Actually blogging is one of the way that i can spend my leisure time..
Sometimes people will complain about what they hardworking for..
Of course i'm the same..
Ya..
Studying is for my own good in future to get a better job..
I know i should study..
Sometimes i will ask myself..
What life that i expect for now and future..
I really don't know..
I just go on my life through a plan..
That is really what i want?

Real Friend

In our life.. Friends or partner are important for us.. Is this correct? Maybe yes maybe not.. When u feel lonely that time only u can find out who is ur real friend and who is not..

Don't u think is really cruel if when u need somebody accompany that time only u think ur friends or partner? Should not be like this.. Should not have this kind of mind..

If u got.. U are not a good friend is.. I admit that sometimes i will be like this.. I feel guilty that i seem like using my friend.. But who does not did before? Sometimes somebody find me and i don't feel like entertain the person i will just pretend i'm walk through but actaully i'm not.. So bad right?

That's why sometimes people do the same thing to me.. I can't blame so much.. Even cannot blame.. because i'm the same.. really shame on it.. Sometimes a couple also will do this to their partner.. The rather that a friend.. How should a real friend be?

Here i tell u guys.. I'm really have a good friend - YTH.. This person really is my real friend i can say.. YTH is so caring.. understanding and so freindly.. We know each other almost 4 years.. We have been stop contact for a peroid of time.. When start continue contact with YTH that time is because i'm feeling upset and nobody entertain me.. This person can spend a very long time with me..

When i'm unhappy.. feeling sad.. moody.. This person will be the one accompany me no matter how and when.. Once i find this person.. For sure YTH will by my side.. Even when YTH is sleeping.. woke up because of my phone call.. YTH never querimony.. This person will still comfort me.. Keep on thinking how to make me happy..

U know.. I'm really feel guilty.. I ask YTH why still can treat me so nice.. Even though i just find YTH when i'm upset.. YTH say feel happy when i'm upset still will find this person.. because i trust my friend.. only i will find YTH.. This is what YTH reply me.. So touch right? My friend never blame.. YTH always told me that Ultraman will always protect me.. will not let other bad people bully me.. and YTH will 24 hours stand by for me.. So childish right? For me is so cute and so comforting.. Even though we stop contact.. Once i find YTH.. YTH be the 1st to accompany me..

Hmm.. please don't think wrong.. Our relationship is just Friend.. I really want to thank YTH very very much.. Because of YTH.. I never feel alone when i'm upset and boring.. You are my most caring and good good friend.. and you are always be.. Thank you very much my best real friend- YTH...

Cry

Last time when i was a child..
I won't cry easily..
I felt shame to cry..
I don't like weak person..
Even i've scolded by others..
Have no friends..
Watching touch movie..
Other people is crying..
But i still remain the same..
Now is different..
I will easily affected by emotions of joy.. sorrow.. reverence.. hate.. and love..
Because of you..
I had cried a lot that i never try..
I just can't stand..
And now..
Becuase of you..
I will try not to cry..
I will do my best..
Make sure my eyes remain dry..
I won't let you down..
I promise you I won't get hurt..
To carry on..
When it all fades away..
I will not cry..
Not shed a tear..
It makes no sense..
Now the time has come..
Promises I made are put to..


P/S :
Everybody cries sometimes.. and if you don't you have to..
Crying is a natural way of letting go of pent up emotions..
It is sad fact that many people are shamed for crying..
Adults who are led to believe that crying is not OK may repress their feeling of sadness.. Emotions that are not allowed to release tend to leak out in other areas of their lives..
The ability to express our emotions whether alone or in communication to others is necessary for a happy life..

Puppy Love

Can anybody tell me that what age dating is still consider puppy love?
What age that can let people think is mature enough?

Some people think of Teen Love and smile.. It's not real love..
Many people say it is called Puppy Love..

Those people have very short memories.. and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences..

While few expect teen love to last a lifetime.. that hardly makes it less real.. Those adult love doesn't last a lifetime either.

Teen love is very real and powerful.. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly or experienced more deeply..

Who among us after all.. can ever forget our first love?

Love is a Universal emotion.. the goal we all seek.. the prize that can make our lives complete and whole..

Love is both timeless.. In too many instances and transient.. We all believe.. If only because we must.. that love can be found..

Some of us or maybe most of us have discovered it can also be lost..

Demon's World

When DEMON is feeling sad..
Cring in the darkness..
Lonely DEMON get care from ANGEL..

You just like a brilliant light appear in my darkness world..
Your smile lights my way..
I'm falling with your loving..
As you take my problems away..

Your voice is really calm my heart..
I always long to hear..
Your touch is like soften my skin..
I feel like living in heaven when you're near..

You're my hope when everything's gone..
Your support really bring me on..
I hope that whatever tomorrow brings..
This you will always know..

Will DEMON losting you?
Will them separate?
DEMON should be alone?
DEMON just need you..

You can't save me

It wasn't meant to be like this

Wasn' mean to happen this way

I was meant to grow up

And be something some day

I couldn't control what was happening

Too much pain surrounded me

I was just a child fighting

For the hope to be free

So much anger

So many tears

Blood poured from my veins

Imaginary chains held in my fears

Now it's affecting me

Memories destroy the life I lead

The scars are everywhere

Even if now they don't bleed

My heart tries to take over

But my mind controls me

A past that hurts won't just go

And I can't make you see

So don't bother sitting down

Trying to talk things through

I'm not the person you think I am

And there's nothing you can do

You can try for hours

But there's nothing you can say

No words will heal the pain

Or make bad thoughts go away

Don't try and touch me

It only hurts what's inside

Just let me carry on

Being someone living a lie

BY : ANGEL OF YOUR DARKNESS


P/S :
My favourite poet really bring out what's my feeling now..
I like her poem very much..
Because is really match my feeling..

黑白

我的世界失去彩色 留下不快乐

电话响了 一再警惕着我的角色

成为受害者 一一的受恐吓

成为金丝雀 与世界的分隔

无谓的压力压着 黑白间的徘徊着

我困了也累了...

Darkness Day

My world become darkness day by day..

I never see the brightness anymore..

Everyday just hope the time pass faster..

Hoping for the day after tomorrow..

When can I see brightness again?

Chasing the rainbow of overnight success..

Feel fear with the handphone ringing..

Don't know what to say with the person who is calling..

Just worry will say wrong thing..

So pressure..

I know that because my stuff many people are get involvement..

I want to apologise to all of you..

Sorry..

Can anyone tell me what can i do?

Can anyone help me to solve my problem?

Noone..

I need a SUNNY day..

Who should be decide the road?

Can anybody tell me when is the suitable time for dating? What age is the best to have a partner? I just need to get some opinions from you guys.. As a parents will you control your children for dating? Nowadays.. many children have a bad relationship with their parents.. Why?

Hmm.. For me.. if my children are under age sure i will more concern on it.. But i just wish to be friend with my children.. I will not push them too much.. If not they will feel scare with their parents and maybe will become more treachery.. I know different parents have different thinking and I understand what are they worry about..

Sometimes parents shouldn't control too tight.. Are they trying to understand what their children want? I know parents do everything is for their children own good.. Parents will always plan and decide the road for their children to go.. Actually we really have to appreciate all the things that our parents done for us..

However.. parents should also let their children try to choose their road.. Not every road parents choose for their children are really what their children want.. Children will also have their own planning.. What don't parents try to talk with their children and more concern them.. Understand what are they thinking about try to let them choose their own way to go? Don't just feel that parents are always correct..

Parents will always said that their children are not mature enough.. Don't have the ability to choose the right way.. Why don't the parents give them chance to try.. Parents can always guide them at beside.. Just try to let them go.. Maybe this way can be maintain a good relationship between children and parents.. Right?

The special one for me

Except my family members.. This person is the very special for me.. YOU have been with me for almost one year more.. In between we got a lot of memorable things happened included sweet, sour, and bitter.. We had been quarrel so badly.. Sweet like honey.. haha.. many people will always comment about this to us..

The 1st impression for me to this person is not really good.. After we knew each other.. Is totally different with my 1st impression.. I feel glad that i know YOU.. There are a lot of surprise from YOU to me.. Before I face that incident happened.. I thought YOU are just a playful person..

After that incident really happened.. I feel actually YOU are mature and supportive.. We had been quarrel for once.. That time i just feel like i should be give up.. The next day YOU apologise to me and show your supportive action.. With your support.. I'm changing my mind.. I know i should not give up easily.. But have to face it bravely..

Yesterday.. I after i received that message.. I really felt so down.. worrying.. and really pressure.. I told out all my unhappiness.. My tears keep on dropping.. YOU be a very good listener.. YOU rub off my tears.. YOU look at me with beam on.. hold my hand and told me softly.. "Don't worry ok.. I will always be with you and support you no matter how.." That moment i felt really comforting from YOU.. I feel very comfortable with YOU..

Thank you very much for all your support.. I know YOU are trying to do something that YOU think are helpful for me.. But don't pressure yourself.. Just try your best.. I know YOU are working so hard that already make me feel so comforting.. Thank you my SPECIAL ONE..

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>Is You<

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>Special One With Me<

Editing Layout

Now already mid night around 5 o'clock.. I'm just finish editing my profile layout.. It is really waste a lot of time.. Actually i already done earlier.. But my 2nd sister give some comments to me and she said help me to edit..

She try for one but i'm not really like it.. and suddenly she lost contact.. I think she already fall asleep.. I feel not really happy cuz i want to change back my older layout.. But i don't know how.. I keep call her and send message to her also no respon.. I'm get a bit angry and keep trying to change back the older layout..

Haha.. I don't know whether my sister already help me change back or myself simply try until success to change back.. So happy.. No need to waste even more time to edit all over again.. I even think want to create one more account.. Haha.. Really Thanks God..

Hmm.. sorry ya yann chai for those message with a bit no manner.. hehe.. I'm quite satisfy with now my profile layout.. So u no need to help me edit la.. Anyway i want to say thank you to u about wasting your time to think how to edit for me.. ^@^

My Dearest 2nd sister - Yann Chai

Jinx

Jinx means what? Chinese call "乌鸦嘴" means the people say something bad and it really happened.. I feel myself really got this ability.. It is really bad for me.. I found out myself not even say out.. Just think only but the bad thing really happened..

Not just one time.. Is many times already.. Sometimes i feel that something bad might be happened on me.. But i just ignore it and finally really happened..

Hmm.. Just talk about one case.. Usually i will always bring my bag along with me no matter where i go.. Even i at my mom's shop walk here and there.. I will never leave my bag at somewhere.. U know why.. hehe.. Cuz my bag has some "contraband" that's not according my parents's law..

That day.. i'm at my mom's shop and i felt so sleepy.. I leave my bag at the counter there and fall asleep in the sofa.. There's a beauty room that usually i will go inside to sleep.. So i think i should go inside to have a nap.. In the moment i'm wondering should i bring my bag along.. Actually i think i should bring along.. cuz i'm worrying my dad or my mom will suddenly check my bag even though they do not do before..

I'm really tired and sleepy.. Finally i choose not to bring along and just leave it there.. In my heart i just think if my parents check then how? But i choose to challenge with my fate.. Haiz.. God don't like human challenge right? When i'm in my sweet dream.. suddenly a bright light on.. i open my eyes and i saw my dad was in front of me.. His hand was holding my wallet.. Oh my God.. That's my wallet.. His another hand was holding the "contraband".. The thing should not be found in my wallet.. (Here to remind : That's not sensual thing)

My dad was looking at me and look fierce to ask me how come the thing was found in my wallet.. I really so blur and don't know how to answer.. I just think in my mind.. Why my dad will found it.. He checked my bag? Why he will checked my bag? I was scolded by him.. Felt regret so badly.. Why don't i trust my sense.. Why i choose not to bring my bag along.. If not.. This incident will not happen..

This is just one case happened few days ago that can prove me got the "乌鸦嘴" ability.. There are still got few cases last time.. After this incident.. I tell myself.. Not to challenge with fade anymore.. Scare lah......

Hot Weather

Taman Kampar Perdana

Recently it is very hot in Kampar.. I wonder how myself everyday cycle to Uni last time.. The sun is beating down on my skin until i can feel pain.. Hmm.. maybe now i'm driving to Uni only i will feel that..

Hot weather really killing me.. I'm a scare cold person.. But i also can't stand with it.. Everyday take nap with sweating.. After bath seem like didn't bath.. Arrgg... When will the weather turn better?

Many people will spending money on doing sauna.. I think i can save this money.. My room already become a sauna room.. Everyday also doing sauna.. I'm really "enjoy" with it..

Raining raining.. Where are u? I need u now.. Come back to me..

Beginning

Hello everyone.. This is my first time writing blog.. Actually i want to write it long long time ago.. Everytime i read my sisters and my friends's blogs.. I just think myself also have to create one.. But i just don't know how to start and i'm really so lazy so spend time on it..

I like to read people's blogs.. Cuz it is so funny and i'm a busybody.. haha.. Finally today i just ask my friend to teach me create one.. Hmm.. and i'm worrying about my english standard.. haha.. I think there must be a lot of gramma mistake.. So please don't complain ok.. But can teach me la.. haha.. Hope u guys will enjoy my blog..

Welcome =)